I pride myself on being a good man of German descent, a stiff upper lip all the time, never show your emotion. To top it off she was just a dog, or at least that was what I kept telling myself each time I lost it. I just couldn’t explain the deep sense of emptiness and sadness I felt, and for a dog.
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Glenn Brunkow is a fifth-generation farmer in the Northern Flint Hills of Pottawatomie County in Kansas. He was a county Extension educator for 19 years before returning to farm and ranch full time. He can be reached at editorial@midwestmessenger.com.
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